what did i do this for???

so i moved up to Cheney about a month ago. but i still am not quite comfortable up here. i don't know maybe it's because when i finally got a job, it's not any where near the career path that i wanted to do. i wanted to be a baker and i work with truckers... it's almost the exact opposite in my book. and then there's the fact that i have no social life.... but then again, i almost always have had no social life. but with school having started, and every one else's life getting "back into the swing of things" i kinda feel like maybe i should have stayed in the Tri-cities. there i would have gotten a job-cake decorating even!!!, and i would have had friends, even if they weren't my best friends in the world. but then again, there would have been this slight awkwardness there.... with certain people. but i have the feeling that I'm going to encounter that same awkwardness here..... idk, i kinda miss Kim sometimes, even when she is here if that makes any sense, which i doubt. then there's the fact that both my roommates are or were in a serious relationship and then there's me.... who has been realtionshipless (is that a word??) for about 9 months now... (which sucks BTW) and before that relationship i was without for almost 2 years.... why does everything end up going back to male-female relationships with me.... i swear, i complain more about RELATIONSHIPS than anything else.......
Kim said the other day that i need a life......this is true.....where does one go to look for a life??? should i show up at institute sometime and just hang out there?????there would be some awkwardness there.......if you know what i mean...again back to relationships...sad...well im'm gonna go back to the same thing i've been doing for the past almost week now, and read my book or do online trivia, if my compy is working that is...lol