what did i do this for???

so i moved up to Cheney about a month ago. but i still am not quite comfortable up here. i don't know maybe it's because when i finally got a job, it's not any where near the career path that i wanted to do. i wanted to be a baker and i work with truckers... it's almost the exact opposite in my book. and then there's the fact that i have no social life.... but then again, i almost always have had no social life. but with school having started, and every one else's life getting "back into the swing of things" i kinda feel like maybe i should have stayed in the Tri-cities. there i would have gotten a job-cake decorating even!!!, and i would have had friends, even if they weren't my best friends in the world. but then again, there would have been this slight awkwardness there.... with certain people. but i have the feeling that I'm going to encounter that same awkwardness here..... idk, i kinda miss Kim sometimes, even when she is here if that makes any sense, which i doubt. then there's the fact that both my roommates are or were in a serious relationship and then there's me.... who has been realtionshipless (is that a word??) for about 9 months now... (which sucks BTW) and before that relationship i was without for almost 2 years.... why does everything end up going back to male-female relationships with me.... i swear, i complain more about RELATIONSHIPS than anything else.......
Kim said the other day that i need a life......this is true.....where does one go to look for a life??? should i show up at institute sometime and just hang out there?????there would be some awkwardness there.......if you know what i mean...again back to relationships...sad...well im'm gonna go back to the same thing i've been doing for the past almost week now, and read my book or do online trivia, if my compy is working that is...lol

the renewal of my blog

what a lame life i have. my first blog on this site for over a year is one of complaint. actually it's self- complaint. yes I'm complaining about myself. so it started with this weekend where i told my mom that i would do a cake for some one's birthday in her office. well, i got distracted and ended up not doing it and coming home (around midnight) to find the task completed. so i decided that i would frost the cake in the morning before my mom left for work. so i got up to do it and she was already doing it. i felt bad. but she told me to go ahead and go back to bed so i did. i ended up waking at noon and then started to do the things that i normally do before noon. needless to say, i was so busy trying to do all of my morning things that i neglected my afternoon things, which were, for today, frost the other cake we had here at home and do a bunch of house work. so then i went out and had an enjoyable night with Kim and her mom for Kim's birthday. i probably should have come home when i realized that nothing had been done but i didn't. so i come home top find the housework done and the cake frosted and my parents are probably really mad at me for being so negligent. but they should get used to the fact that I'm not around. after all, i am leaving in less than a week. but they may use that reasoning against me saying that because i am leaving in less than a week i should be dong more around the house i just know that there is no pleasing my parents. they tend to be disappointed no matter what i do. oh well. it's time for me to get some sleep. tomorrow i hope will be better on my part, i hope to get this house looking so good that they will forget that they were ever mad at me.